-+- the blind can see more than most people do-+-

3 de mayo del año 2009

2009-05-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

3 de mayo del año 2009

haiz stil feeling weird today. Wondered if i will stay alone forever or not. Not a clue to the answer though. Only time will tell. Talked to wendy today and only realised now that she has a boyfriend ahahas I'm too damn slow already. The biggest question on my mind is why girls like guys that tease them. I must be missing something this generation has. Explains why I'm stil single, it's because I'm a nice guy. Girls don't like nice guys, they like bad boys i think. Not even going to bother pretending I'm something I'm not. Anyone even going to read this? No clue, i doubt so. Sometimes i really do wish i was blind, then i wouldn't need to care, but being me i know i still will care for the world regardless... Haiz... Is this my curse? Anyways Happy birthday to chih xian, hope she has a good day, better then mine anyways.

27 april

2009-04-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

27 de abril del año 2009

Ok today was quite boring, went to poly our first lesson was a lecture, i think most of the people slept hahas.

In the tutorials and lab sessions i felt so invisible because i felt like almost everyone was ignoring me T_T.

Haiz don't know if its me or not. Maybe I have BPD. I felt so sad the entire day. Maybe it is me, maybe I am going crazy. Can't seem to tell the line that seperates reality from imagination. The line seems vague now, but the world still seems as dark as the day i opened my eyes. Everyone has that special someone to turn to, like corst and his gf, anson and his gf and so on... Wonder if i'll ever find mine. Maybe i am destined to be alone forever, should this be my burden, so be it, i will never allow another person to carry such a burden as mine. Tch... ought to seriously go seek a counsillor hahas. I'm seriously losing it, my depression may be coming back again. Haha wondered how i dealt with it for the past 6 years. The path i walk on is thinning out, so i guess i will create my own path. Its getting late, don't even think anyone reads this. Gonna try to turn in without lullaby-ing myself to sleep again. Each passing day seems harder and harder for me.

haizכמו בחשיכה של הלב שלי הוא רק ידיד שלי

2009-04-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

Haiz don't know how to feel right now. Feeling so weird,

כמו בחשיכה של הלב שלי הוא רק ידיד שלי,

וכי הוא יהיה החבר היחיד שלי.

24 de abril del año 2009

2009-04-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

24 de abril del año 2009

Current Thoughts: האם אני מוצא את זה מישהו

Currently feeling: אני בחשיכה

Ok back from Edward house, we were celebrating all our classmates birthday who had their birthday in april ( Huxley, Kai Rong and Chapman) Haha, i remember that in secondary school, no one in my class could remember my birthday. Come to think of it i think i was invisible ( I could slip in and out of class stuff so long the teacher was not there hahas. It was like no one in class really noticed me.)

Ok so straight after our classes at 11am (yes we are like one of the few classes who are released at this time in poly...) we went to koufu to eat ( we ate it yesterday too). I tried the bubble tea at the south canteen. Dun see the diff between the bubble tea there and near mcdonalds. I still prefer my teh tarik haha. Afterwards we went to hougang point (stalling for the people who are preparing the birthday stuff like decorations and such). Nothing much in there and we were walking around aimlessly in there. Thanks to Ranjit for letting me try his blackcurrent and alcohol mix. It tasted like ribena except for a slight bitter taste. 5 of us were laughing cos they paid $18 for a bottle of ribena.

Reached Edwards' house and played games. I didn't like the games much just played. The last time i went to a birthday party was in the april of 2008 for a classmates birthday. Don't know why i even went for it. I felt so outcast. Then i again i still feel outcast. Forever diffenrent never the same, such is a curse i carry i guess. At around 2.30pm, we went to the function room to sing karaoke and play pool. We played pool until most of the class went to play basketball. When they did so we went and sang english songs ( I think i sang my heart out haha).

Me, Brian, Corstiaan,Syuhaimi, Ee Yang and Ranjit (The Legendary 6!) went home at about 7.30pm. I took the train back to Woodlands myself and had dinner by myself. Haha, kinda reminds me secondary school life, i always had dinner by myself. Reached home at about 915pm. Haiz i wonder if anyone will even read my blog since it has been dead for quite some time haha.

הִתחַיוּת

2009-04-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

הִתחַיוּת

After many people ask me to bring my blog back, i have finally decided to do so (Its also cos at poly got much more free time as compared to JC students haha). Ok so after 1 year of inactiveness, i have done alot of stuff. So to get up to speed:

O lvl results: L1R5: 15( T_T such crappy results)

L1R4: 11

Currently playing: RA3: uprising

Granado Espada

bleh...

2008-04-15T05:56:00.000-07:00

haiz.. better post something or else i say bye bye to my blog. anyway, i had better add my taiwan photos when i feel like it (lol).

2008-02-17T07:02:00.001-08:00

Your Power Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua

Your energy: deep

Your season: winter

Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.

You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.

A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.

You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What's Your Power Element?

2008-02-17T07:01:00.000-08:00

You Should Be a Doctor

You are practical, sharp, and very intuitive.

Optimistic and energetic, you are a problem solver who doesn't get discouraged easily.

You are also quite compassionate and caring. You make people feel hopeful.

You're highly adaptable and capable. You do well with almost any curve ball life throws at you.

You do best when you:

- Are always learning new subjects

- Use your knowledge to solve problems

You would also be a good therapist or detective.

What Should You Be When You Grow Up?

2008-02-17T07:00:00.001-08:00

You Are a Total Brainiac

You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say genius.

You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident.

You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to.

No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you.

You've got the brains to do anything you want.

It's possible you end up doing everything you want.

Are You a Brainiac?

2008-02-17T06:51:00.001-08:00

What Jonathan Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Am-I-Dumb.com

2008-02-17T06:46:00.001-08:00

Am-I-Dumb.com - Intelligence Test

Its been so long...

2008-02-17T06:22:00.000-08:00

Quite some time since i updated this blog. Any way, my exams are over ,but there's still the 'O' levels (haiz). Doing my work but not forgetting to hv fun as well. I can successfully complete my rubiks cube (58.12 sec) and 4x4x4 (5.12 min) and 5x5x5 (20.43 min). Actually got 5x5x5 on friday. i'm also playing Granado Espada, chionging levels.Only a few Friends will read my blog, but it's better than nothing. Still think Nickson is still partially hopeless (mugs nearly every dae). Well, tats all. Gotta continue hw!

Haiz...

2008-01-05T08:29:00.000-08:00

Its the new Year! Well I know its passed, school is giving me a bigger stack of homework this year. Finally found time to update this blog. A year has passed, can't believe how fast it past, and the usual things people say (wheres the creativity?). Anyway, finally got the pictures when i travelleed to thailand (20th to 30th Dec). Here they are:

Heres a view of clouds from above. (looks as though you could walk there!)

This is the food thai airways provided (doesn't taste great, but i can guarantee it tastes better than what SIA serves)

This is the temple on the mountain in Chiang Mai (Solid gold! I wonder what happens if it gets struck by lightning...)

This is Chiang Mai! ( Seen it, let's go home!)

Guess the animal! (Bet you can't!)

My Dinner (S$15. Cheap right?)

Thats all i am posting for now. Got to finish my work!

National Treasure Premiere

2007-12-18T08:42:00.001-08:00

Today i was out for the entire day. Went to Plaza Sing before heading to the cathay to watch National Treasure: Book Of Secrets. Was quite nice to watch, turns out the bad guy in the show isn't that bad after all. Anyways, its worth getting the dvd (which i will patiently wait for......is it here yet?). Haiz... so tired. Going to sleep now...zzz

w00t! music

2007-12-16T10:02:00.001-08:00

This is the KH theme song

Yay! BBQ at Zee's house

2007-12-16T08:10:00.000-08:00

2day (or rather, yesterday) we went to Zee's house for a BBQ! Dunno why the only food we had was chicken or hot dog. It was quite fun seeing nickson get water bombed.lol. w00t! Anyways, i think nickson a little emo... dunno why. Btw, my internet keeps acting up. It connects, then disconnects, then connects again, then disconnects and then this goes on for 3 more times b4 it stabilizes. Damn ie also disobedient. want to post, hang and hv to restart. by the time i can start typing this, it's the next day! !"£$%^&*@:!"£$%^&*. Haiz. Oh yeah, 2dae i saw this guy playing sangokushi taisen and his 1 v 1 score perfect. WTF? How he play one? aso cannot cheat. Haiz, so pro.

The very first post! w00t

2007-12-03T09:48:00.000-08:00

This is my very first post! This is my blog and most things i type here should make sense