Monday, April 27, 2009
27 de abril del año 2009
Ok today was quite boring, went to poly our first lesson was a lecture, i think most of the people slept hahas.
In the tutorials and lab sessions i felt so invisible because i felt like almost everyone was ignoring me T_T.
Haiz don't know if its me or not. Maybe I have BPD. I felt so sad the entire day. Maybe it is me, maybe I am going crazy. Can't seem to tell the line that seperates reality from imagination. The line seems vague now, but the world still seems as dark as the day i opened my eyes. Everyone has that special someone to turn to, like corst and his gf, anson and his gf and so on... Wonder if i'll ever find mine. Maybe i am destined to be alone forever, should this be my burden, so be it, i will never allow another person to carry such a burden as mine. Tch... ought to seriously go seek a counsillor hahas. I'm seriously losing it, my depression may be coming back again. Haha wondered how i dealt with it for the past 6 years. The path i walk on is thinning out, so i guess i will create my own path. Its getting late, don't even think anyone reads this. Gonna try to turn in without lullaby-ing myself to sleep again. Each passing day seems harder and harder for me.
kingdomhearts<3
posted@8:44 AM